It's been awhile since the last time that I post something here. I almost forgot that I have a blog because it seems like writing in a book is a more easier than writing in a blog. It is not norm for me to be here, so something must had happened that it brought me here. Well I guess so.
Just a lot of things playing in my mind. I mean these thoughts somehow killing me slowly. It makes me feel I'm worthless. Some said I'm over thinking over everything. But little did they know that I've had enough. I feel so done. Those un-explainable assumptions, those mistakes that are not sorry. Those things happen and I don't know if I can take it anymore.
It hurts, seeing you prioritizing others rather than me. It hurts, seeing you talk happily to others but not to me. It hurts seeing you laugh to other's jokes but keep your straight face when it comes to me. It hurts, thinking I am loved but not sure about it.
It hurts so bad. You have no idea how hurtful it is. No...